Without Jesus (Heaven), John Milton (Hell), T.S Eliot (Hell) and William Blake (Hell) I would have struggled to understand the true nature of the universe. Jesus, Milton, Eliot and Blake are, for me, the perfect mix of theory, practical and creativity - and trust me you need imagination to reach this plain - Jesus, a force for our perception of Heaven, understood that the power comes to the just and the unjust, "But I say to you, love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, so that you may be the sons of the father who is in Heaven; for he makes his sun rise on the evil and on the good and sends rain on the just and on the unjust." But for all of Jesus' virtue, he was not a soldier, he was a teacher, and when the Jews came for him, his soul, so enlightened it resided in another plain, would not fight, but rather sacrifice, and he would become a martyr and an eternal force for all future beings to find the light, "My Kingdom is not of this world. It if were, my servants would fight to prevent my arrest by the Jews. But now my Kingdom is from another plain."
The good news is that a Jesus-type consciousness is available to all who will seek it - but this is not my destiny - and when they come for me I intend to fight with such fervor that the earth will rage in accordance to my heart. And though I will teach any who will listen, I am a soldier, with a view to balance the forces of good and evil, and make no mistake, the forces of Hell dominate the present day, hence mankind's collectively low level of consciousness. Greed, ambition and jealousy are the emotions dominating the world today, fighting for money instead of personal growth. Nevertheless, I see Angels everywhere, raging against the night, some unaware of what they are, others fully conscious, an endless stream of light and dark energy, and never have I seen a greater opportunity to change the tide of this Eternal War.
But the great question that plagues the poet or inventor is, 'Is it right to change the tide?'
John Milton and William Blake were enlightened beings for Hell. Inspired by Milton, Blake wrote "The Marriage of Heaven and Hell" and claims that John Milton was a true poet and was "of the Devil's party without knowing it." He also claims that Milton's Satan as depicted in the epic was truly his Messiah. The ironic thing, and this is why it's so difficult to choose a side, is that the forces of Hell have led us into the 21st century. Unfortunately for their followers, the ones who don't understand the nature of self-rule, the cost has has been ignorance, blindness... it's no exaggeration to say it's cost them their soul - climbing ladders that doesn't exist. Funnily enough, it took a lesser mind, one not bound by the parameters of perfection, to work out how to release this explosion of growth that we see in the world today. Nikola Tesla (Hell) is ruthless when talking about nature, and actually feels that natural selection is key to the speed of mankind's evolution. Jesus, Gandhi (Heaven) and Mandela (Heaven) would not agree and fight for those that cannot fight for themselves. The truth is, no one is right or wrong, Heaven's forces are more compassionate, fighting for the heart, sometimes at the cost of human development, but never at the cost of soul development. Hell's forces are unemotionally humanist whatever the cost and those that fall by the wayside, including their followers that cannot see, are simply victims of nature and nature is never wrong.
My initial journey into the alternate plain in 2007 had me choose Milton's Satan, but instead of balance, I found insanity and, after meeting the god-force and begging for forgiveness, upon my ability to receive his forgiveness (it felt like accepting death) I woke up in Euston's University College Hospital, with maybe a dozen faces staring at me wondering what the fuck just happened, a few days later I was in Highgate mental hospital and a few months later, I'd progressed to a mental hospital in France. In 2007 I was a true victim of hubris, and, come fall, I fell spectacularly into despair. I was told by the blind that I needed to cage my feelings, hence the anti-psychotic Zyprexa, and, though I tried, whilst in China in 2010 I reverted to my true nature once again. But once again, I reached in vain. There was something in this puzzle I was missing, but I couldn't work out what it was. I found solace in Nelson Mandela's words, "There is no easy walk to freedom anywhere, and many of us will have to pass through the valley of the shadow of death again and again before we reach the mountaintop of our desires." But eventually I gave up my search, and found a semblance of peace in my ignorance. My heart knew it was wrong, but I listened to my dad, my friends, logic and reason, and in doing so, I gave up on my hearts true desire. In 2015 my dad died and I was brought back onto the path again by a person I can only describe as my one true guiding light, she is an Angel among Angels, but the journey is long, and I'd been lost inside logic for an eternity making it extremely difficult to break free from the banalities of life. My routine became my prison. My Groundhog Day. But nature called to me like a wolf in the night and in 2017 a familiar feeling restarted, one marked by the B.E. blog, but again it was fragmented pictures of a half finished puzzle, a half remembered dream, and once again inevitably, I fell spectacularly into despair. The final ascent began at the end of 2018 and in 2019 I just let go. No more rules, no more logic, I was to trust in the grand plan and not fight it. I was to let the world and my feelings guide me. I lost everything. I sacrificed it all. All I had left was my faith and in doing so I finally understood, "If you want to be perfect go, sell your possessions and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in Heaven" [Jesus] and in doing so I woke up with nothing in Prague and I was finally free. I was the happiest I'd ever been. Prague fed me, bathed me, befriended me, miracle after miracle after miracle, until I knew... I'd finally found the last jigsaw piece. The answer was in Jesus' teachings all along, I just didn't have the courage to give up all that I thought was important.
Material possessions and material friends.
The war is indeed Eternal, and has been raging since the beginning of time, the only problem is, as the light continues to manifest a more sophisticated being, the war has indeed become more sophisticated.
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