Today I woke up to a changed world
What mattered no longer matters
What was no longer is
No reason
No explanation
Only a Kafka Metamorphosis
All the ugliness buried deep inside me has been moved to the surface
And I embrace the darkness
It releases me from the chains of light
The illusions of happiness
Out of nothing
I dared to create something
But my desperation was transparent
My deception obvious
You can't change who you are
And it's time to stop running
I now realise this moment was inevitable
I built it
I am the architect of my own pain
No one else
Unable to save myself from myself
I am not so selfish that I don't understand that I can ruin lives
And it's a truism that I only leave destruction in my path
I belong to hell
And death becomes me
And since loneliness and grief are the only friends that will never leave
We three will sit together
Outside the black gates of eternity
And reluctantly they will watch
As I destroy something that was once beautiful
